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 Subject :I like being old..
Joined: 2009-02-26 23:45:46
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Location: London UK

I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray
hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become kinder to  myself, and less critical
of myself. I've become my own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie,
or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but
looks so avante garde on my patio. I am  entitled to a treat, to be messy, to be extravagant.

I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon, before they understood the
great freedom that comes with aging.

Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4AM and sleep until
noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60's & 70's, and if I, at the
same time, wish to weep over a lost love ... I will.

I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and will dive
into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet set.
They, too, will get old.

I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten.
And I eventually remember the important things.

Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose
a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car?
But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never
broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray, and to have my
youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So many have never laughed,
and so many have died before their hair could turn silver. 

As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think.
I don't question myself anymore. I've even earned the right to be  wrong.

So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I  like the person I have
become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I will not waste time
lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert
every single day (if I feel like it).

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